Tina…single young mother…a Christian…having been baptized into her Lord just about three weeks ago…two precious children, 4 year old Jake and 8 year old Caitlin…wants nothing more in the world than to be a good, loving and available mom to her little ones.
The cancer has come back with a vengeance. Pain is not a visitor but a resident in her life now. She is in the hospital as I write this and has been for about 10 days, I guess. Today her children came to visit her for what might well be the last time…I can’t imagine what it was like for her this afternoon…to say goodbye to them…to kiss them through tears…to try to be strong for them, so as to lessen their fear and suffering.
If she is able to sleep at all tonight, she will wake up tomorrow facing an 8:30 AM surgery that is scheduled to last 14 hours! The best the experts can tell her is that she has a fifty-fifty chance of even surviving the surgery. And even if she survives, the cancer may only permit her a few more months to be with her children.
She has been doing business with God. She wonders about how unfair it is for one such as her who only wants to be a good mom to be afflicted with this wasting and painful disease when there are so many other “mothers” in the world who care little or nothing for their children…she wonders why this has come to her…she wonders why it is so severe…she wonders why nothing has been successful at stopping the disease…and even why God seems to do nothing about it. She wonders why her preacher doesn’t have answers to her questions. But I have seen amazing faith and love in the heart of this newly born of the Spirit young woman. I admire her strength. I know Who gives it to her. She is my hero. She does business with God, I say. She won’t…can’t leave Him…even though she can’t understand.
There are those who give her no hope. But there is One Who has given her living hope already! What do you think? Is she safe? Is she safe with all her questions? Is she safe with all her pain? Is she safe with doctors giving up hope for her? Is she safe with her tears…her fears…her worries…her doubts…her loneliness? Yes…she is. She is safe in the arms of Jesus, her Lord. It is well with her soul. And if the much prayed for answers don’t come tomorrow or the next day or the next…she is safe still! And when one day I go looking for her…or she goes looking for me…we will find our Christian comrade safe in the arms of Jesus. Bless God!
If you read this tonite…or tomorrow while surgery is ongoing…would you…please…breathe out a word for Tina to Father God. I know you will…and I thank you for that. I am glad for the tie that binds us all in Jesus. I love you…but my Father, well, He sings for joy of you!