How Does God View Me?
I wanted to say thank you to all who have shared my family’s grief over the sudden death of my youngest brother, Adrian. It has been very meaningful and helpful to us. For you to pause from the many activities of your busy life and walk with us for a while in our valley…well…we don’t take that kind of love for granted.
Your patience in allowing me to meditate further in these blogs about the journey my brother had in life is also very much appreciated by me. For me to say a word or two about my brother helps me. And, I fully believe, my brother would be glad of heart to know that his story has helped one or two along the way. I know this…he has taught me lessons I won’t soon forget.
It was in the e-mail that he sent to a radio Bible class teacher that Adrian finally asked, “If this is mental illness, how does God view me today?” I believe this was the real central and haunting question of my brother’s long and lonely search. He was never able to give himself a break and to simply let go and rely on the love that his Father God had for him. While he caught glimpses of this rich truth from a distance, he could never seem to bring it near and let it hold him for any length of time. His uncertainty over how God viewed him brought him trouble and fear…and in some ways, crippled him.
My brother was right to be concerned with how God viewed him. I wish to God more people were as concerned as he about how God views them. But there was something broken in him that wouldn’t allow him to embrace the liberating truth of God’s acceptance of him…of God’s abiding love for him and of God’s real delight in him. I’m convinced he has fully accepted these truths now. We know that the Judge of all the earth does right. And if my brother had some mental illness (as I believe he did), he now fully understands that God takes all kinds of things into account that humans beings either can’t or won’t. I believe that where there is no ability (virtually) there is no accountability. Only God can settle these kinds of matters. I am content to leave such judgments to Him.
Now…our view of God is mighty important. But His view of us is much more important. His view of us is seen and understood most clearly in the Cross of Jesus Christ. This is how much He loves us…how determined He is to forgive us…how bent He is on helping us grow…how willing He is to bring us in on His gracious purposes for all people everywhere, including us.
When God looks at you who have come to Him by the way, the truth and the life which is Jesus Christ, He delights in you as His beloved child of faith. And even when we have trouble seeing it or accepting it, God has no such difficulty. Let us trust His view of us. He sees better than anyone. He sees what we would do for Him if only we were good enough. He sees how we long to be better than we are…and how, if we could, we would immediately stop doing anything and everything contrary to His wishes. He sees that we just can’t get along with out Him. And yes, of course, He sees our sins, but He sees them through the lens of the old rugged Cross. He sees how we regret them and how we repent when we are reminded of them…and how we live in this state of penitence, refusing by His grace to allow our sin experience to harden us away from Him. He sees how we keep intending to do better. He sees how we just can’t throw in the towel and quit. Where do you think this sort of resolve comes from? It comes from Him Who loves us so much more and so much better than we do or can.
Dear sisters and brothers…beloved of God…behold the wonder of how your Father God views you. Behold, and be glad! Behold, and be at peace in your heart. Behold, and let your radiance shine on those around you still living in the dark. How He loves you! Can you believe it? Can you really accept it? Can you carry this assurance with you in the lonely times of your life as well as in the times of trials, temptations and loss? Be convinced of how broad and long, how high and deep, is the love of your Father for you.