Who Sees Who?
One night during the WWII German blitzkrieg of London, a father and his small son ran from their burning home looking for another place of shelter from the bombs. The father jumped into a large shell hole in their yard then yelled to his son to jump. The boy hesitated and said, “Father, I can’t see you!” “But I can see you,” replied his dad, “Jump!” And so he did…safely into the waiting arms of his father.
Sometimes the night is very dark…very dangerous. All our usual places of refuge have been reduced to rubble. The smoke is thick. Our vision is hindered. Our hearts are racing. All around us is noisy confusion. Where will we find the safety we need? In what shall we hope? We can’t see our Father. Maybe our doubts have been loud and convincing lately. Maybe our own sin has been eloquent in its testimony against us. “You are not a real Christian, it says. You can’t be serious! Do you really think God could love someone like you?” And as this onslaught continues to assail us, we feel ourselves wavering.
And so we speak…”Father, I can’t see you. The pain hurts too much. My tears blind me. My past won’t leave me alone. My failures mount up. Guilt and embarrassment overwhelm me. They consume me. I am not worth Your trouble. All I do is mess up. So often it feels like there is nothing at all good in me. You seem so distant. Are You there? I know You are there for others who are just so much better than I am. How could I expect You to be there for me? I don’t expect it! Father, do you hear me? If I thought You were near me, I’d say to you, ‘Depart from me, for I am a sinner.’ Father, I don’t want you to depart, but I can’t think You’d stay with me. Will You stay with me? Would One such as You…could One such as You, love one such as me? You are there, aren’t you? I’d love to jump into Your strong arms…or to just collapse into them. If only I could think You wanted me to. The night is closing in on me. I don’t think I can keep breathing. I am cold and alone and lonely.”
Listen…what is that I hear…Who is it that makes reply? It is your Father and mine! And what does He say, from His home in the eternal ages, through His magnificent plan to save us all, in the life of His Son given in our stead…yes…what does He say, Who has done it all for us? “Jump, for though you cannot now see Me, I always see you. If you can’t jump, collapse into My arms…I’ll catch you. Let go, I’ll hold you. Be still and know that I am God…your God. It’s not the strength of your faith…it’s My strength. It’s not your ability to be good, it’s My ability to be true. It’s not all you have figured out, it’s that you are Mine. Yes…you are Mine. In all your questionings and confusion, I hear your faith. Maybe it’s weak at this moment. But it’s real. That’s what counts with Me. It’s not the purity of your love for Me, it’s the breadth, length, height and depth of My love for you. I’m here to stay. I will never leave you or forsake you or fail you. Jump into my arms and be safe with Me!”