I don’t know exactly when I took over. I don’t even think I really meant to do it. It may have been that I grew frustrated and then disappointed with the job I thought he was doing. But whatever was my rationale…it was a bad mistake. But I can tell you this for sure…I want out! I don’t want to do it anymore…not ever again!
It was an unbearable load…an oppressive burden. I got so weary of being “right.” One might assume that knowing all the answers would be an enviable position…it’s not!
When the credits rolled after various episodes in the drama of life…the first line read…in the role of God, Doug Oakes. I’ve notified my agent. I don’t plan to play God again in my life.
This means that several things, previously rare for me, will be occurring regularly. I will say, “I don’t know” often. It means I will stop trying to press God into my pre-formed mold. It means that I will sometimes (maybe often) be surprised at what God does, and I won’t feel like He blew it by not consulting me. It means that I will be even more uncomfortable in the face of life’s dilemmas. It means I am out of the business of judging the hearts of people and out of the business of telling people what they should do. God knows those Who are His. I don’t. Certainly not in every case. And since I don’t know them all, I will just keep trying to bring as many as I can to Him. It means as I read His Word, it will be in order to try to understand and obey it…and not simply so I can tell others what I expect of them. And it will mean that I will struggle to try to be consistent in how I apply His Word…and the fact that I will be inconsistent won’t keep me from trying.
And whatever else it means…I’m finished playing God. And if I could be finished once and for all forever, I would be. But since I know I’m human, I’m sure I will trespass on God’s turf again in the future…but I pray I will be brought back to reality quickly by one or another of His many clear, unmistakeable “no-trespassing” signs.
Only God is God! And He is great and greatly to be be praised!