More Now Than Ever
I have more questions now than ever, but I am not nearly as insistent upon their answers. I am more aware of my pre-conceived notions now than ever and I’d really love to be rid of all of them. I hold a much smaller inventory of faith’s essentials than I once did and I really believe the Bible led me here! I shy away from playing the role of judge far more now than ever before and I am truly at peace with that. I can see much more clearly now how capable I am of sinning against my Lord and those I love and I hate it more now than ever before. I am more grateful now than ever for the long, long line of His amazing people that God stationed along my pathway to help me keep going, to show me such faithful love, to teach me His ways and to help me believe that I could actually be a part of God’s work in the world. I am less at home in the land of my pilgrimage but more grateful for my journey here than ever before. And I am more taken with our Wonderful Jesus, more desirous of honoring Him, more willing to bend my knees and own Him as LORD. I pray that the fear I always carry with me of my life ending in disgrace to His pure and lovely Name, will never materialize. Because of Him I believe, I hope/expect, I pray, more now than ever before, that my life will not have been lived in vain. Please, dear Lord!